Im Taking The Long Way

Hey guys! It has been three weeks since I last posted.  I actually did write one blog, but did not have the courage to post it.  The other two weeks just kind of passed by so fast for me.  My day to day life is much different now, than it was a month ago.  I began a new job.  I have spent the past 3 weeks getting used to this new change.  I also have been trying to find a new balance to it all.  I am so grateful for this new opportunity in my life.  I know that with everything I do there is always something new to learn as well room to grow.

I used to worry that I was not where I should be in life.  Like I do not have the career I should have at this point, or I have yet to begin the process of buying my own home.   These are not my expectations.  These are the expectations of what this World tells me that I "should" have.  This is what others tell me I should have.  I am not even sure myself if I want those things.  I have no idea where I would want to buy a house, even if I were ready to make that large purchase.  I attended college where I constantly changed my major.   I am just not ready to commit to doing the same job for the rest of my life, at least not at this point.

So why should I let others make me feel like I am missing out.  Well the answer is I shouldn't.  I am happy with where I am in my life and what I am doing day to day.  So... that other stuff really doesn't matter to me.  Its like I am on this adventure.  I'm not sure where I am going yet.  I just know I am headed somewhere.  I know that each day I want to push myself to be better than I was before.  I am doing what I want, not what is expected.  Everyone is different and that is okay.  We don't need to push each other down about what we have or don't have.  I have what I need, and the way I see it that is a lot more than what some have.  So I am grateful.

 I am excited about this stage of my life.  I want to soak up each moment of it.  Each day is a new experience.  Everyday is a chance for growth.  Its okay that I am not sure what I want out of life.  Right now I am just doing the things that I want to do.  Figuring out who I am, and the things that I like.  Helping others in my own kind of creative way.  Being there for my son, and watching him learn and grow.  I dont need that other stuff.  I'm not any better or less with or without it. 

Maybe its not just me... maybe there are others who feel like they are falling behind.  Life is not a race.  I will get where I need to be, when I am ready to be there.  Life is about more than a career or a home or whatever it may be that you feel you are missing out on.   I know I can use each day for growth.  I can try something new.  I can take the time to look at my child while he is still little.  I can make a memory that I dont even know will be a memory yet.  I can use my days, instead of wishing them away.  That is what is important for me.  That is how I want to be living.  I wanna make the most of each and everyday.  Its a journey, and none of us walk the same path.  ... and there's not a thing wrong with that.

I am not lost.  I just took the long way to enjoy the scenery.


Love always,

TSandra