Hello and welcome to my blog! My name is TSandra. I am a wife and a mother of a 5 year old boy. I am on an adventure of self discovery. My hopes for this blog is to inspire others, while finding my everyday reason. For those who choose to take this journey with me, keep in mind that I'm new to the blogging community and I am excited to become a part of it.
Two years ago I quit my job to move back to my hometown. This was something my husband desperately needed in his life and he doesn't ask for much so I agreed. For the first few months we stayed with my grandparents while we waited for an apartment to become available. I had been a daycare teacher for the past three years. This allowed me to bring my child to work with me for free and I earned a paycheck.
That very first morning I woke up without a job I felt sad, useless. and the list could go on. My husband already had his job lined up, so he was good to go. I struggled to find routine. I could have went out and found a job, however the type of job I would have been qualified for would have went to daycare cost. I basically would have been filling up my day and missing time with my son for little financial gain. Depression was creeping up fast and I seen the storm coming.
That first morning was a struggle. I lay there and felt no reason to get up. I could tell my mood was affecting my son. I reached out to friends and family. They were very supportive and ready to give their help. They listened to me and tried to help, but my depression was still pulling me under.
Christmas was right around the corner, and that didn't help matters. I knew it was up to me to pull myself out of this rut. I needed a plan. I went out and bought a Christmas Tree. A big one! My sister suggested a small tree since the house was small. I listened to her advice, and ignored it. Arriving home carrying my very large tree and various Christmas supplies, my grandparents definitely noticed. They had several questions for me and I simply told them the truth. I told them I was sad and trying to cheer myself up and that my son needed a tree at Christmas. They understood and I put it up. Everyday after that my son and I would make a paper ornament and hang it on the tree.
One morning I woke up to find that my grandmother had made some ornaments. She was so proud and smiling. That is when I realized she had been sad too. That everyone in the house had been a little blue. I made it my mission to bring the Christmas spirit back into our family home. I surprised them by decorating their porch with Christmas lights. Then they surprised me with wanting to add more. It was like a chain reaction. My small decision to keep myself busy caused something to spread, and I think it was cheer. I was inspired. I felt like I had found the key to happiness by simply trying.
Since that simple Christmas, I have been branching out and trying new things. All kinds of new things! I am 28 years old and unsure of where I want to be and what I want to do with my life. I am on a quest for happiness you could say. I am trying to find what I am good at and what I love doing. I am searching for my purpose. That is what this blog is about. This is where I will document my progress. I want to share my story along the way. I hope to inspire others to get out of bed and try something different. I want others to see the value of simply trying. I have many plans for this blog some of which include, interviewing others about their life, experiences, and trials. I know this blog may not change the World, however I hope it broadens mine.
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